Tumbling

Recently, I mastered my round-off, back handspring.  Tonight, I got a round-off, double- two back handsprings in a row.  As fun and exhilarating as it was, after doing multiple passes (the gymnastics term for a tumbling sequence), I still found myself giving myself a pep talk before starting the run.  I found myself especially in need of a psych-out cheer when attempting passes away from the comfort of the spring floor and  on the not so spring-y mats for practice or the rubber-based track.

This seems to be something pretty elementary when encountering ALL hard things in life.  No matter how many times I have told myself that applying to grad schools will be a breeze, I still feel the anxiety of how much work is yet to be done and the fact that results are not guaranteed compounds these feelings even more. Trying to find how to balance a long term, long distance relationship with no regularities or guarantees has been feeling rather similar.  I can do this!  We done this for so long... we know we can make it!  Why do I find myself saying this in my head over and over and over again?  When will I accept what I am continually reminding myself?

A good friend told me that I need to find strength in myself to do just that.  I also think I need to lean more on God.  Its hard to remember to give Him some time and enjoy what you have in front of you.  Another friend told me that you have to life in the moment you are in or you are never be happy.  SO TRUE!  We are gifted with so many moments- expected and unexpected... and we will miss half of them if we just wait for the expected.

God,  Please help me to await the unexpected moments.  Help me to remember to spend time with You and know that You have created me with so much strength to stand on my own.  Thank you for my amazing tumbling skills and the courage to dive, head first and backwards, towards the ground.  Be with me this week when I'm struggling... and when I am celebrating!